How do you look into the eyes of someone you have betrayed?
I walked slowly towards Yemi. I had the bed sheet draped around my body. He didn’t turn to acknowledge my presence but I was sure he knew I was behind him.
“Why our bed?” he said facing the window.
I could not say anything.
I had to ask myself that question. Why did I decide to defile our marital bed?
I wanted to speak, but the words could not come out of my mouth clearly. Yemi was patient and kind. How could I blow that up?
Osas was the only reason I would blow my marriage up with Yemi.
Osas was nothing like Yemi. He was just good for sex. Today, I got caught and from then on things would never go back to being the same.
“I don’t know what I was thinking, there is clearly no excuse for what happened in there.” I responded. I had to own up to this, it wasn’t fair for him to suffer emotionally for my infidelity. He had given me basically everything including the assurance for the growth of a healthy relationship.
He didn’t turn to look at me. He stared out of the window. It hurt to know that someone who could so easily look me in the eye avoided mine.
